Lately Chris and I have been spending a lot of time at our house trying to get it ready to live in... ya know the basics like toilets and showers... So the other day i was in the "living room/family room" putting blue tape around things so that we could prime the yellowed walls and then paint them a beautiful color. Everything was going great and me and Chris were getting along just grandly and having a gay old time when SUDDENLY his grandparents came over and I took a break to speak with Chris's grandma and for the first time I realized that when we move in, we may not have anything ready... soooo
(these are tears not drool...)
I do the only logical thing, I get in a fight with Chris over nothing, and then run to the front room and lay on the dirty carpet and cry. When Chris asks "why" I honestly have no clue.. and just cry to him about how the house isn't done and so we leave because i no longer am a very good help in my condition...Another example... yesterday at work, I was being very impatient and just all around rude. For instance:
Someone would call in and I would answer with the greeting. and the person would say something like
Mr man: O, hey I called earlier and left a message and never got a call ba...
me: (interrupting) "sir, sir, sir"
MR man: O, um yes?
me: the only thing that I can do is take another message.
Mr. Man: well you see, I already left a mess...
me: sir, sir, I know that. but THE. ONLY. THING. I. CAN. DO. IS. TAKE. ANOTHER. MESSAGE!!!!!!
Mr. Man: (really quite..) I'll just call someone else....
But unfortunately there is more.
I usually call Chris everyday while I'm walking to my car because there are a lot of homeless people about so I call him to make sure I make it to my car OK.... so Chris yesterday made the mistake of asking me how my day went.... my response...
And that was not the right thing to say... why you ask? i don't know why but something in me said "ya know it has been more than an hour than the last time i uncontrollably cried my freaking guts out.... so how about right now while i'm walking towards my car?!"
Rough two days right??? yeah there is still one more....
Yesterday after going to see my sister's baby Chris and I drove separately and were going to meet at his mother's house for food and Chris called to tell me that their fridge was broken and they didn't have food....
normal scene right??? WRONG
I flip out because Chris asks me what I want to do about dinner and that is just too much stress for me at this point apparently...
at this point I am down to only crying once so far... unfortunately it was right when I got to work and I was trying to take calls... didn't work everyone saw through it... If this continues Clear Eyes is going to hire me to bottle my tears so they can sell it to moisten other peoples eyes.
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Sometimes, when I watch Animal Cops late at night, I cry to myself and for the little animals. Also> Once I cried to Spongebob. Yes. Sponge has made me cry.
oh ash i'm sorry!! believe me once you are all married and settled down things will get better. in the mean time keep up the funny posts and awesome illustrations!!
Why are we the same person sometimes??? I flipped last night. Blawing infront of juan's family and several guests. Crazy? Yes. Because of birth control/my dress not being right/hating my job/hating everyone else/hating the kid at the credit union who couldn't remember his password? Maybe. Maybe we will just always be crazy like this.
Kylee,
i just don't think that people understand how hard it is to wake up in the morning and just be normal all day long! like i have to walk through it step by step "ok ashley, don't murder people... they are all in line for groceries too... its not their fault THE WANT 6 BAGS OF ICE!!!!"
six bags of ice is out of control. kill them.
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